Nobody wants to be my friend cuz i am a feminine guy and many don't know i am gay and i get abused wat do i do?

well i stay in india and here colleges start from 11th grade and therz all these new people and already few ppl laugh on me make fun of me and yet nobody approached to be friends with me! :( i tried approachin people but nobody really seemed to be intersted and i can't even teall evry1 i am gay cuz then it wud be a MAJOR problem and people will make fun of me and my family will kill me and i never even had a boyfriend its really frustrating! only few of my close school frnds know and now they're in dfferent colleges how do i deal with all this if it helps i move to u.s.a after my 12th grade maybe things will be better there but until that i have alwayz been depressed and well i have gender identity disorder too! and i feel like a girl actually which makes things even more complex livin life is hell i don't knw how do i live!i consider reasignment later in life but for now this can't be handled plzzzzz help i felt suicidal once not anymore